Tuesday, June 5, 2007

Forms, Documents and Waiting...

Yesterday I prepared a package to CHI containing the travel agreement and other such forms and mailed it. Then I went home and started going through all the documents we have ever received, printed, or copied during the adoption to date. Needless to say our file of documents has now officially turned into a box.
Now that our dossier is in Russia things have become so real for us. Waiting is so much harder than I imagined. I feel silly complaining about the wait time already, but it truly is tough. We wonder if our child has been born yet and if so we wonder what he wakes up to each day. We pray that he is safe and well and warm. There just isn’t anything we can do at this point. While we were gathering documents, at least we could make it go as fast as we wanted. Now we have no control.
Please keep us in your prayers as even though this waiting period may seem difficult, we know and have heard from others that the period in between seeing your child and bringing them home is much, much more difficult.


Melissa said...

I'm one of those that told you that the wait between trips is bad. It is. But don't think you can't complain about this wait, too!! I went to bed every. night. wondering if my baby had been born, and if so, wondering what he (or she?) looked like. I would try to imagine the moment he/she was brought in the room. I even tried to imagine how I would react when our consultant called to let us know we had a referral.

Some of my imagination was right on target - other parts were nothing like I had imagined!

So yeah, this part of the waiting is hard, too. Mainly because of the unknown. So don't feel bad for complaining or feeling sorry for yourself. We all need to do it sometimes, no matter where in the wait we are!! :)

Adrienne and Jim said...

I SO know how you are feeling!! I have been there, and I felt so sad and helpless at time. It is so hard not being in control of something you want so much, isn't it? I dreamed about our child or children, prayed about them, and imagined what he/she/they were doing each day.

We now know little Owen is our son, and we can't wait to see him next week. The waiting is so hard, Rachel. It's okay to be frustrated or sad and to complain, it's how you feel. I've felt the same way, and I know it can be overwhelming at times.

I was told this by so many other mothers, and I now can tell you the same...when you have that court date and know you are going back for your second trip to get your little one, all the waiting is so worth it and your heart will feel so light and full of joy!

Hang in there!! Look forward to meeting your little one right now and try not to worry too far ahead. You'll go crazy!! I pray you don't have to wait long for a referral. Please feel free to email me if you want to complain or need some encouragement. It's okay! :O)

PS I'd love to have your personal email! Thank you for offering to help with my dogs too :O) I think we have a friend in Nashville who is going to do it for us! :O)

Anonymous said...

Hello Williams Family,
Hope you don't mind - I got to your blog from the CHI website. We sent in the our dossier to Russia (Tver) around the same time (May 4). I really identified with your comments about the wait and the unanswered questions about who are baby is, if he has been born, etc. I guess we pray for reaccridation and the mental and physical well being of our little one. In case you ae interested we just joined the blg world also: http://rileyadoption.blogspot.com/

Allison said...

I just found your blog from the CHI blog - we are also a CHI family. I agree that the waiting is horrible! This is our third adoption (we've been waiting for a referral from Astrakhan for 6 months) and we thought it would be easier this time - we were wrong! My last thought every night is about what our little girl is doing right then, what she looks like, how old she is....makes it very hard to go to sleep!
Anyway, just wanted to let you know that you're not alone in your complaining. The waiting is the hardest part, but when you hold your little one in your arms you'll know it was all worth it.